You may say I'm a dreamer. But I'm not the only one.

I LOVE clouds. I don't know what it is but when they come out, I just want to take a picture. (I have lots of sky pictures on my phone... kinda pathetic. But they're so pretty!) Unfortunately, the time this most happens to me is when I am in the car. Most of my sky pics are taken from behind the wheel. And yes, I realize this is probably not the safest idea but what can you do. I spend a lot of time behind the wheel right now. I have put over 5,000 miles on my car since starting school in June! Needless to say I have plenty of pics to show for it...

Early morning clouds with sun peeking through. Soooo beautiful.

Love these bridges. I always think of Little Miss Sunshine:

Yummy drink after an exam. Oh wait that's not the sky... ;-)

Love these beautiful Arizona sunsets.

Time to start my morning of studying for reals now : )

Mawwiage is what bwings us togevvar

Being married is awesome. I loved dating Scott for 7 years but being husband and wife is even better : )

I have to give a huge shout out / thank you / I love you to my husband. Since going back to school, I haven't always been the funnest person to be around.... Most of the time, I am tired, stressed, and never home. And when I am home, I'm usually studying, getting ready for the next day, trying to keep up with laundry and other house duties, and cranky :-/ It was a rough adjustment for the first couple weeks of school and although I have gotten used to the schedule and control my stress/crankiness a little better... I still have my moments.

Thanks babe for putting up with, loving, and supporting me. Thank you for taking on some extra "chores" at home. Thank you for dealing with my 5am alarm clock and me getting ready every morning. It will all be worth it in a few short years. <3

And in case you are still confused about the title of this post... go here.

Moving Forward.

Isn't it funny how we constantly are looking forward to the next thing? The next event. The next test. The next best iPhone. I'm so guilty of this. I practically live in the future with how much I think about it. I love planning (and my calendar!).

Every so often, it hits me: I'm in PA school. What?!? How LONG have I been planning, studying, and working towards this goal. And now I'm there... here... in PA school. And it's already flying by. I just know I am going to blink and all of the sudden I'll be done. They keep telling us to enjoy these times because it will be over so quickly. Which is when we think, enjoy? How about try to survive? Ha! But as hard as this year will be, I'm going to try keep stress under control (on most days) and enjoy this journey. After all, it is my last time being a student.

This quote was read to our PA class at school and I found it very fitting:

"Embrace this right now life while it's dripping; while the flavors are excellently woesome. Take your bites with bravery and boldness since the learning and the growing are here in these times, these exact right nows. Capture these times. Hold and kiss them because it will soon be very different."

- Jill Scott (off a Starbucks cup)

Looking Back.

On the first day of Kindergarten, my mom said that I was smiling and wiggling with excitement before I was even out of bed. I couldn't wait to start school. I loved learning and always tried my very best. I loved elementary school.

When I entered Junior HIgh, I remember thinking: "Wow, elementary school doesn't count for ANYTHING! No one will ever look back at those "grades" or ask what my extra curricular activities were. Why was I trying so hard? Now that I'm in Junior High (that's almost high school!), this really matters."

Once I made it to high school, I realized that I made it to the first step that actually mattered. Again.. "Why was I trying so hard in Junior High?. At least these grades and achievements will be looked at and potentially get me into college."

Went to college! And thought: "Man, high school was a joke. For the first time this is hard."

In PA school... and already thinking undergrad was joke. lol. I'm not even out of my first quarter of PA school (which has been challenging and an adjustment), but can see myself looking back and thinking summer was easy.

Such a terrible cycle! I've always been trying so hard and then when I look back on it, I wonder if it was worth all the trouble? all the stress? Obviously it's been worth it. Every step of my education has led me to the next. It's just easier to look back and think it was so simple because you're done with it. I guess I'm just hoping that in times of stress this year, I'll remember to let the stress go, still try crazy hard, and tell myself that I CAN DO THIS. I have to remind myself often.

Only the beginning

The BEST thing about this blog post is that I get to say that I am now a PA student. I GOT INTO PA SCHOOL!!!

I applied back in in the Spring/Summer of 2010 to the 2 schools here in AZ: AT Still and Midwestern. Both great schools. One significantly closer to my house than the other. AT Still is 14 miles from my house and Midwestern is 50 miles! I was offered an interview at Midwestern and had that in the beginning of September. Soon after I got a letter saying I was on the waitlist. Not the greatest news but somewhat expected. I was in their first weekend of interviews and they said they won't fill all of their spots right away because they have interviews for almost 5 months. They usually call people off their waitlist in Spring. So I waited.

AT Still finally sent me a letter in Novemeber (while I was away on my honeymoon) saying that I wasn't even getting an interview. I was honestly shocked. So many of my friends with similar credentials as me had interviewed there and got in. It was a sad thing to come home to after our honeymoon : ( So I held on to the small piece of hope that I was on the waitlist at Midwestern.

We survived the holiday season and begin the new year... I told myself that if I hadn't heard anything by March 1st, I would mentally prepare myself for the fact that I wasn't getting in and begin to modify and assemble my application to REapply. Well, March rolls around and began asking my references if they would submit another letter of recommendation for me. One of my references was the head PA at the hospital I work at. She's an awesome PA and I'm a little intimidated by her. I was actually afraid she might say no because she actually limits the number of letters she will write every year. I finally got the courage to talk to her about it and she is all hung up on the fact that I am on the waitlist at Midwestern. She says she has a friend over there (one that she had recently went on a medical trip to Haiti with) that she wants to call and talk to...

She finally talks to her friend a few weeks later and my reference shoots me an email saying:

"Libby, I spoke with my friend ___ at Midwestern today.

I can't promise anything, but keep your fingers crossed."

Eeek! I was so excited but also trying not to be cause it doesn't actually mean anything yet. I get a call. the. next. morning. "Congratulations, you have been accepted into Midwestern's PA program." I get off the phone and burst into tears. My world had been flipped upside down. I had prepped myself for the reality that I had another year of work, reapplication and interviews, and was ready to resubmit my application the very next week! And then? BOOM. I'm in.

The scary part was that I had only 2 months till the first day of class! I got busy getting ready... titers / immunizations, lots of paperwork, LOANS, new laptop, and of course mental preparation. Everyone says PA school is like trying to drink from a fire hose... Can I do this? I kept telling my self yes and hoped it was true.

I have survived 5 weeks now (WOAH! Just realized I am halfway through my first quarter!) and I'm still passing. Woo! It's definitely stressful and has taken some adjustments

for both my husband and me. Driving 100 miles a day (almost 2 hours) really eats up a chunk of everyday and I'm probably only home and awake for about 3 hours. There's not a lot of time to spend together. Especially when I'm always studying.

Anyway, this has gotten long enough. Posts are better with pics. So here is me on my first day of PA school (at 6am). Thanks for rolling out of bed to take this, Scott. It'll make my mom happy : )

And here's a phone pic of the pretty campus:

Back to studying now... See you all in August 2013 after I've graduated! haha